No Love Greater

I get the pattern. 3 Bad days. 1 Good day. How long for though? Not being impatient, just checking when this personal hell ends. I know yours is greater than mine but see it's all I ever knew. Your love. Your strength. Your example. And for some bizarre reason I believed in your immortality. I know, foolish girl.

They think it should be over by now. It's been a while. How do I explain that it's just beginning now. It's harder than ever to start a day now because I know exactly what lies at the end of it. One more day of not being able to hear your voice. Did I tell you how much I love you, enough? I know, selfish girl.

You tried to prepare me. You did a great job. Not you. It's me :) I can't believe that something that is there one day, just disappears the next. Ok not into thin air but almost...

I am a part of you. Each day I am more you than I was yesterday. If my source of strength leaves, do I stop being strong too? If I can't see you being proud of me, will I stop making you proud? Scary thought.

Jacket potatoes. Gourmet... Gourmand....Growmet...hahhaha

I just miss you. So much. I love you. Much more. No love like yours.

Didn't know what loss was until the day I lost you.